he was dancing on the float, he noticed us and jokingly yelled, “What are you sorry for? It’s pride!” I pointed to our signs and watched him read them.
Then it clicked.
Then he got it.
He stopped dancing. He looked at all of us standing there. A look of utter seriousness came across his face. And as the float passed us he jumped off of it and ran towards us. In all his sweaty beautiful abs of steal, he hugged me and whispered, “thank you.”
I realized that i ended my last post on a rather depressing note. i made it seem like i had a razor to my wrist ready to cut. i just want to clear a few things up.
I wont deny anything that i said before, everything i said was 100% true. i am not clinically depressed or anything. Im actually very happy. the reason i wrote out what was basically my life story (so far) is because i had been holding that in for the longest time and just felt like throwing it out there.
I am not really afraid of anything anymore (i do have my limits). After years of torture, i just realized theres nothing to be afraid of once you get to the root of why bullies are what they are. In fact, from what i can tell, i am 100% positive that atleast 3 of my former bullies are raging homos themselves (probably the sweetest revenge of all, right?)
I also came to the realization that if all of those things had not happened to me, i would not be who i am today and that thought scares me because i like who i am.
And through it all, i have never/would never wish to be straight. i’ve met people that say that, if given the chance, they would turn straight in a heart-beat (that sucks doesnt it? that society is so cruel to people that they are willing to change themselves just to feel accepted) but thats not my cup of tea. Think about it, you get to experience something that only 10% of the entire population gets to experience. whats the fun in being like everyone else anyways?
Right now it may seem tough but in the end, everything will pay off.
And as for the people that hurt me, i know this is so passe’ but in the end, i got the last laugh.
P.S. One in ten is the magical statistic. Do YOU have more than ten friends? something to think about isn’t it?
STOP trying to make prop 8 happen, it is NOT going to happen.